Whoever you are.

It's weird being me lately. I've been doing so many things I wouldn't think I would do lately. Personally, I think what I'm doing for myself should be considered pretty bad for me. I don't know why I don't change myself though, I need it. However, I think amongst them, my biggest fear is the fact that AIDS may probably course through my veins at one point in my life. I pray to god that it isn't right now, though, if it were, I wouldn't be deathly surprised. What I feel after that though, may be dramatically different.

I'm just at a very weird position in my life.

What I found out yesterday, devastated me beyond all means. The person I once thought was the only person that existed that I could call mine turns out to have lied the whole time.

I was drunk as shit last night. I called his house, and his uncle picked up. Apparently, a Max Hunter doesn't exist. I think I'm about to die. How does someone lie about something so deep?

People in this world are just so fucked up.

I give up on men.

Ian.